December 7, 2016
Today I was re-reading some of my blog posts and was particularly moved by one I wrote exactly one year ago. I wrote:
“When was the last time you wondered: What am I supposed to do?
Are you inadvertently enslaving yourself through over-thinking everything you do, and repeatedly questioning yourself?
Perhaps you’re looking to others for answers instead of listening deeply for your own inner truth?
Do you dream of experiencing the depths of being alive on this earth… motivated from the inside out to create , free to spend time with friends, travel, write a book, and share your message with the world?
How wonderful for you. Your dreams are important!
Those non-verbal thoughts, lying deep within the well of your subconscious are singing a song of true harmony. It bubbles up from within the source of your own wisdom.
Yet sometimes it’s really hard to grab onto them long enough so that they can take root and flower into physical reality.
Doubt and disconnection from your inner truth (by over-intellectualizing, listening to others before yourself, etc…) can so easily take you away from clarity to know the next right step to follow through is that would manifest the abundant life you are meant to live.”
Reading this a year later – present in Israel, having just completed leading the live journey – these words resound even more….
When I was in Israel, I bumped into an old client on the bus whom I hadn’t seen in a long long time. She asked about the launch of Miriam’s Secret…. where is the book at this point? When I am planning to launch it… etc… etc…. I answered that those are exactly the same questions I am asking myself continually… While I have clarity (for twenty+ years now – that this material will come out)… it’s birth has been L-O-N-G and S-L-O-W, requiring patience and LOTS of faith.
The Israelites spent forty years in the desert on the way towards the Promised Land. Twenty years…. that’s half the time!
The wise part of me trusts the process. It takes what it takes. The critical task master used to belittle me by reminding me what I coulda, woulda, shoulda done or accomplished by now. Compare and despair. ICK…Been there. Done that.
Fortunately being attuned to my ancient roots with their wisdom – my client offered me a note of support by sharing the subject of her current thesis work at the university: The power of prophecy Evidently there is an entire academic field that studies the phenomenon. There are two kinds – inner and outer.
She explained that Miriam, Moses and Aaron are of the inner school – termed – ecstatic prophets… the experience of their visions, were at a non-verbal, non-cognitive level. The later biblical prophets were of the outer kind. She added that the inner school is characterized by deep knowing in something that cannot be named in a word, and yet that knowing is the source of wisdom and knowledge that gets acted upon.
Exactly my experience. Been walking the walk 25+ years now. I KNOW when something is right to act upon, because I get this inner directive to do it. I follow through. Other times, when the message is not clear, I wait, or wade through what seems like molasses.
The message today is…excitingly clear – establish the Ancient Healing Music Choir for the holidays. It has been YEARS since I’ve been dreaming of implementing this idea. Yet there was always fog around it.
This last week, I spent a full day with my mother in the hospital for some pre-surgical procedures. I spent almost 8 hours in the waiting room. (Update: my mom is well – and never got the surgery :-)!!
That evening I went to bed at 7pm so exhausted that I slept straight through until morning. I woke with crystal clarity – provide music for the families and friends of patients.
The caregiver gives, but who gives to the caregiver?
I called my client and colleague who directs the healing arts initiative at UCLA and asked if they’d be interested in collaborating in the project. The immediate reply: YES. I took that as a Divine sign. We’re now in the process of contacting volunteer services to set a program during the holiday season, to provide free healing music in the waiting rooms of Ronald Reagan Hospital at UCLA medical center. If you’d like to be part of it, please let me know. I set up a project page here yesterday. I also set up a facebook event page and would appreciate your passing it on to healing musicians.
December, 2016 Update:
The choir was fantastic! We had three programs: one for the homeless following their surgery, and one for patients in a stroke aftercare center.
In Israel, we had a healing music choir in Bet Shearim:
There is a time and season for everything…and this is a time and season of gratitude.
In ancient times, we experienced life from the inside out. Today the learning curve is sharing the secret science of Miriam’s music by listening inside to receive clear direction towards the next step, then taking it.
These last twenty plus years leaving my homeland of Hollywood (CA, USA) to the lights of Paris, France, and back to recover my roots in the ancient Holy Land has taught me that the experience of being alive, and the joy of it actually comes from this journey between being rooted and uprooted, clear and unclear… and the journey is the way to the Promised Land.
This message today – in the light of such change happening, is even more relevant. What have you gone back to recently which teaches you lessons of wise perspective? Leave a message below.